I had two doctors appointments today, but it gets worse. They were GYN and dental appointments. That's right, folks. I had the privilege of having blood drawn, a pap smear, dental xrays and cleaning all in one day. I'm firing the chief as my PA-- that was a doozy (plus the gyn visit took 2.5 hours). I'll find out the smear results within two weeks, but everything else is "very normal". I have to go back to the dentist for a filling next week, and I need to make an appointment with a dermatologists for two concerns I have. My biggest cancer risk is melanoma because I'm so fair. So, I feel as if I need to get screened for that. My sister, my mom and my grandmother are all red heads... to give you a picture of how lily white my gene pool is.
Plus, I was melancholic and heartsore all day. I had Holly Golightly's "mean reds". This day climaxed with me telling my sister, "I hate my life." There was no exclamation mark; it was merely a statement. Since I couldn't make headway in redirecting "my life" this afternoon, I went to work out at the gym. And, I made a mental list of things I need to do for closure and for commencement. So, tonight I shall journal and read. There are so many good books I've started, I plan to get through at least two during this break.
Having my extremely Type A sister around transformed the low point into a turning point. She never asks me how I feel, but what I'm going to do about it. I need the action oriented in my life.
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